Where Were YOU...

Where were you when I took my first step...
Where were you when I said my first words...
Where were you when I needed to learn to tie my shoe...
Where were you when I was learning my abc's...
Where were you on my very first day of school...
Where were you when I was scared at night...
Where were you when I had those bad dreams...
Where were you when Mom had to work nights...
Where were you when we had to keep moving from house to house...
Where were you when Mom struggled to pay the bills...
Where were you when she had to get that second job...
Where were you when I lied to her about that thing...
Where were you when she was disciplining me...
Where were you when she needed a hug...
Where were you on her birthday...
Where were you on those Father's day...
Where were you when she jus couldn't go on...
Where were you when she needed someone to talk to me...
Where were you when the other kids ask me for you...
Where were you when I got picked on...
Where were you during those many birthday's...
Where were you during those father son moments...
Where were you when I could shoot a basketball correctly...
Where were you when I needed someone to talk to mom...
Where were you when I struggled with that project...
Where were you when I wanted to learn to ride a bike...
Where were you when I needed your help with homework...
Where were you when I was in high school...
Where were you when I had that crush on that girl...
Where were you when I needed that ride...
Where were you when I got into that fight at school...
Where were you when I got that A...
Where were you when I got suspended...
Where were you when I needed a new pair of kicks...
Where were you on senior night of basketball...
Where were you when I didn't know how to tie a tie...
Where were you on prom night...
Where were you when I graduated high school...
Where were you when I got passed that joint...
Where were you when I needed to learn how to drive...
Where were you when I needed to change a tire...
Where were you when I needed a to buy a car...
Where were you when I had my first date...
Where were you when I got into college...
Where were you when I was moving into my dorm...
Where were you when I wanted to go to that Red Sox game...
Where were you when I first started shaving...
Where were you when I wanted to go to that movie...
Where were you when I got into that accident...
Where were you when I needed some money to pay that late charge...
Where were you when I was choosing my major...
Where were you when I picked up that bad habit...
Where were you when I needed money for books...
Where were you when I barely passed that class...
Where were you when I was being an idiot...
Where were you when I had to retake that class...
Where were you when I graduated College...
Where were you when I was heading into the Real World...
Where were you when I cried for something I couldn't handle...
Where were you when I jus needed a friend...
Where were you when I needed a word of encouragement...
Where were you when I got in trouble...
Where were you when I got pulled over for being Black...
Where were you when I needed to learn bout the birds and the bees...
Where were you when I had my first kiss...
Where were you when my heart got broken...
Where were you when I needed an explanation...
Where were you when I jus couldn't understand why...
Where were you when I was treating that girl like shit...
Where were you when I needed to know what love was...
Where were you when I was being a jerk...
Where were you when I needed that fatherly talk...
Where were you when I needed you opinion on this girl
Where were you when I was confused about where a relationship was going...
Where were you when I needed that hug...
Where were you when I messed up and made a bad decision...
Where were you when I got home late...
Where were you when I was out drinking...
Where were you those nights I couldn't sleep...
Where were you when I moved away...
Where were you when I handled my responsibilities and did well...
Where were you when I struggled with my relationship with God...
Where were you when I felt like church wasn't for me...
Where were you when I got fired from that job...
Where were you when I moved back home...
Where were you when I was frustrated with life...
Where were you when I realized what I wanted to do...
Where were you to say you were proud of me...
Where were you to show me you loved me...
Where were you when I jus needed you... its days like today that really get me thinking about you... seeing other ppl looking forward to Father's day and going out and either doing something with their dads, buying them something, calling them jus to say "I love you" and "Happy Father's day"... I don't blame you nor do I blame God for taking you away those many many years ago... I jus wish I got a chance to know you and realize who you were... I'm grateful that you were able to LOVE and MARRY a wonderful women... who has done her best to deal with me and do what she could and can to guide me and raise me the right way... there are many days that I jus MISS the SHIT out you... miss those moments that I knew we could have spend jus chillen and talking about life... days we could have talked sports and debated who's better Jordan or Kobe... days we could been working on the car together... fixing things up in the house or jus talking about the future and what to expect from life's up's and down's... the struggles that go into making a relationship work but the LOVE that binds you to her... only God knows why such events happen to shape our lives... I'm grateful for those short few months I got to be held by my dad before he got sick and passed the pictures show a man that was really happy(jus wish I had my own mental memory)... a man that was ready to teach his boy everything he knew and then some... I was his pride and joy along with his loving wife who he treated with love and respect... I wonder how much she misses him... I bet its more then I do... because he was her first and only love... how heartbreaking could it have been for to lose her soul mate so soon... how hard it is when her anniversary comes and goes and she remembers that love... how hard it is when the day he passed comes up on the calendar... the memories she must have... the hurt her heart must feel... I wonder how hard it must be when she looks at me and see him... I wonder how hard it is to deal with me when I put her through those long days of head aches and stress... how easier would things have been if he were still alive then and now... but she presses on doing double duty... what a GREAT women she is... I someday hope to find someone like her... who is hard working, caring, loving and jus a good God-fearing women that lives her life accordingly... I can honestly say that she'll be in Heaven for sure... my only hope is that I'm there with her and that the struggles she gone through to put me where I'm at, doesn't go in vain... because of her I am a good man... because of her I will do what I can to make sure that I'm there for her (even when I don't want to)... because she's done far to much for me and I'm grateful for her continually being in my life... where would I be without her I don't even want to imagine... so on this Father's day I wanna say I love you both... thank you Mom for everything... words can't express how much you mean to me... and thank you Dad for being there even when you really weren't... the thought of you drives me each day to be a good man, a good son, a good friend, a good boyfriend, and some day a good HUSBAND and an even greater FATHER!...

I MISS YOU...!