We Finally Meet...

So while I've been down here in Miami most of my thoughts have centered around my family and how things were and have become... So the next few post will focus on jus these thoughts....

As 17yrs went by all I knew was that of my moms side of the family... as far as my fathers side... all I knew was that my father passed away didn't know much about his family at all... all I knew was that he had a younger brother that used to live in Boston... after his death whatever ever happened to that brother was def unknown to me... so all I knew was my moms side of the family... never gave a thought to my fathers side... life was fine as is... no hard feelings not regrets... such is life... so high school graduation has come and gone... I'm college bound...I'm turning 18 in the fall I jus came from a month long trip from France and I waiting for my trip to Florida to finish off the summer before I head to school...  as I'm getting ready for my first ever trip to Miami I get a call a few days before... "hi my name is such and such and I'm the nephew of your deceased husband"... thoughts run through my mind... what, who, where, when, how, why now!... now I don't get it... why now... how'd you find me, when did you know, where were ya'll, who are you, what's going on... imagine going 17 years and never really know that you've got family members on your other side of the family and out of no where they show up... wanting to be part of your life... but even more crazy is the irony in the fact that your days away from going down to the exact area that they reside in... how weird/crazy is that... but through the questions I'm excited but nervous... and questions jus continue to fill my head the whole time before I meet them... how many of them are there, how do they look, is it really them, is this really happening now... and again and again why now!... after so many years why now!... the day comes, I'm picked up by my cousin he gives me a big hug, introduces himself and I see a tear come down his face I'm left standing their jus smiling... he tells me my dad was his favorite uncle and that my dad took him everywhere... was like a father to him!... he brings me to his moms house my aunt my fathers older sister... has I get out of the car I see that people run back inside... and I see a flock of ppl come back out smiles across the board... I'm hugged and touched I'm grab this way and that way... I hear cries continuous cries... I see tears of sadness and tears of joy... I'm left sitting smiling not sure how to really feel... their feelings are much different from mine... I'm left to wonder what's going on in their heads... I can't even imagine... only because the person their crying for I never got a chance to really meet, to really know... deep down I'm happy to meet them... a play with my cousins... most of whom are older or very littler compared to me... but being a kid at heart I play with the little ones... they watch my every move, my interactions and they continue to smile... I felt like the lost son come home after so many years of being lost... they've now found me!...