My God's Plan Child

5 years ago you came into my life, our unexpected third child... little did I know that with you entering this world you also opened a new chapter of life for me... since I've known of your coming my enter world has completely changed... two weeks after finding out you were coming I lost my job... unaware of what the future would hold I vowed never to work for anyone else ever again unless it was under my terms... with no job, not much money saved up, no idea with what the future would hold; I was completely naked to God's plan... your mother was only working part time, your grandmother had just been laid off herself a few months earlier which forced her into retirement... things definitely looked bleak; as the man of the house so much pressure was on my back... how would we overcome this, the pressure seemed to continue to grow daily, I legit had no idea what was next... after a month or two of scrambling around and doing random things to make money, it finally hit me... God reminded me that I had a whole degree and certification that I should probably go back and put to use... it was at this moment He started opening doors for me... one thing led to another and I started a business without knowing how but I let God lead...I was able to pick up a side gig to allow consistent money to come while i figured things out with 6Fit... as the weeks kept creeping forward to your arrive I was still very nervous... would I be able to sustain all this, would I crumble under the burdens of being a black father of three kids under 5... how would all of this unfold I truly didn't know... I stressed daily of what was to come but I held all together, never letting your mother completely know my thoughts... I know she was overwhelemed and stressed but I could allow her to know that I didn't have it all worked out, for as much as she was a worrier her knowing my uncertainties would have made the pregnancy worse and would only heighten my own worries... the day before you arrived I was out playing ball your brother and sister were with me; your mom went to walmart with her sister for a walk to try and get you to come... sure enough it worked, I got the phone call, quickly went home to drop off your siblings and grab your mothers bag, you were coming... at 1:21pm on Sunday November 13th you popped your head out into the world and announced your arrival... hello Jordan Harper welcome to the world. you may have been then one not planned by your mother and I but God knew why He wanted you here, he made sure of it... you might be the youngest of your siblings but you are most certainly not to be treated as the smallest... you are my POWERHOUSE, your presence is always known and you standout where ever you go, sometimes shy but once comfortable your true personality comes out... I love your energy, warm caring heart, your no nonsense attitude, your sassiness, your beautiful warm comforting smile that lights up any room and most importantly fearlessness and randmoness, you speak your mind and will tell it like it is... you're okay with doing things and playing by yourself, mixing it up with the girls are just hanging with the boys... I see a lot of your mother and grandmother in you which I'm not sure the world is completely ready for... you, my POWERHOUSE are a force to be reckoned with and I look forward to being right there guiding and teaching you the way... you may not have been in the plans but you were for sure in God's plans my child... I am grateful to call you daughter, blessed to see the growth and happy to share in the everyday moments... I love you Jordan Harper... My God's Plan Child